What matters.

What’s been my biggest security blanket/enemy in my relationship with Ana? The scale. For nine months, JJ and my best friend, as well as my treatment team, have begged me to get rid of it and I refused. Today, I told Jesse to get rid of it, and here’s why. For months, I weighed myself methodically […]

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Lessons from Portlandia.

Last weekend was my favorite weekend of the year. My kickball team plays in the annual Red Rubber Showdown, a kickball tournament hosted by Underdog Sports Leagues, in Portland, OR. We make a whole thing of it – driving down on Thursday, spending the day together on Friday, the tournament on Saturday, then heading back […]

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Healing – from the inside out or the outside in?

The colloquial phrase is “healing from the inside out” and people always say the inside matters most, right? When it comes to eating disorder treatment, I have been told that I have to do the outside work first. I have to gain weight. I have to eat more. I have to get physically healthy so […]

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It’s not about the food, people.

Yesterday was a big day for me. I had 5 appointments, 4 related to Ana. By the end of the day, I felt the most motivated and committed to recovery than I probably have in this entire journey. My recovery is not just about food, though. I mentioned I had 5 appointments today. Recovery is […]

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