The best frenemy there ever was. And I do mean, WAS.

My scale has been a significant and constant friend and foe for sixteen years. It has been Ana’s greatest weapon against me. Ana has used her scale weapon to determine whether my day will be good or bad, what and how much I am allowed to eat, whether I have any worth or am lovable….

What matters.

What’s been my biggest security blanket/enemy in my relationship with Ana? The scale. For nine months, JJ and my best friend, as well as my treatment team, have begged me to get rid of it and I refused.┬áToday, I told Jesse to get rid of it, and here’s why. For months, I weighed myself methodically…