Ana’s Reason 3.

Series: Under the Surface – Ana’s 13 Reasons Why A series of posts uncovering what is really beneath my anorexia and depression. Reason 1: Genetic Temperament Traits Reason 2: Inheritance Reason 3: My parents’ marriage. And divorce. And remarriage. To each other. MAKE A DECISION. These people couldn’t decide if they wanted to be together or not. Marriage – Attempt 1 (1975-1986) In 1975, they got married on October 11th. As far as I remember, they had a strained marriage. They were as different as possible: Mama – emotional, hot tempered, depressed (like, really), fierce, determined, kept changing everything around…

Lessons from Portlandia.

Last weekend was my favorite weekend of the year. My kickball team plays in the annual Red Rubber Showdown, a kickball tournament hosted by Underdog Sports Leagues, in Portland, OR. We make a whole thing of it – driving down on Thursday, spending the day together on Friday, the tournament on Saturday, then heading back to Seattle on Sunday. We rent an AirBNB for extra special team bonding. While it’s my favorite weekend of the year, it’s also terrifying to Ana: All the social time I will spend trying to feel like I’m not dying on the inside, fearing that…I’m-not-cool-enough,…