Game, Set, Match.

March 29, 2013 – my first weight recording on MyFitnessPal. January 1, 2019 – checked my “all-time” weight recording on MFP for the first time. In just under six years, guess what the weight difference was? ZERO. ZERO. Once more, with feeling. ZERO. I was SHOCKED. Since March 29, 2013, I have dieted. I have […]

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I’m okay.

A miracle happened this Monday morning. I was driving to work and felt my belly and hips. Employing a coping strategy from treatment, rather than personalizing my thought, I observed it: “Hmm. I feel my belly and hips. I am noticing they are there.” Then, I did the usual next thing. I reached over and […]

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Facing the kitchen. Literally.

My department moved to a new building on campus last month. Above is the view from my new office. The person in anorexia recovery won the coveted spot directly facing the kitchen. Does anyone else appreciate the irony? I did laugh when I found out. And I mentioned we moved last month…December…the holidays. What I’ve […]

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Ana’s Reason 6.

Series: Under the Surface – Ana’s 13 Reasons Why A series of posts uncovering what is really beneath my anorexia and depression. Reason 1: Genetic Temperament Traits Reason 2: Inheritance Reason 3: My parents’ marriage. And divorce. And remarriage. To each other. Reason 4: Genes load the gun. Environment pulls the trigger. Reason 5: Mama […]

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Ana’s Reason 5.

Series: Under the Surface – Ana’s 13 Reasons Why A series of posts uncovering what is really beneath my anorexia and depression. Reason 1: Genetic Temperament Traits Reason 2: Inheritance Reason 3: My parents’ marriage. And divorce. And remarriage. To each other. Reason 4: Genes load the gun. Environment pulls the trigger. Reason 5. Mama […]

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What’s “normal” in recovery?

I am in no way “recovered”, even though my body is supposedly smack in the middle of the normal range. I have a lot of issues with the sentence I just wrote.

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How to #jugglealltheballs in 3 simple ways

QOTD: How do you juggle all the balls you have? I have some answers below, but would love to hear your ideas! Alright folks. I took my longest break from writing a blog post since I went public. I didn’t mean to…it’s just…well…I’ve been…well…life went bonkers. So, everything was great (I mean, not really but […]

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On aging and anorexia.

Now that I’ve actually been to treatment, the professionals say I’ve actually had anorexia since I was 24 (2002). You can go to My Story page, my Life Narrative, and/or Diary of a Psychological Anorexic for the full scoop. That is sixteen years or more than 1/3 of my entire life. And that’s with an […]

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Happening Now: Peggy v. Ana – The Battle of the Bagel

Location: Starbucks, Seattle WA Time: 3:00pm (afternoon snack time) In one corner: Peggy, a 40 year old female with a husband and toddler, in the throes of recovery from anorexia and depression. In the opposite corner, Ana, the eating disorder who has stolen sixteen years of Peggy’s life. In the middle: a plain Starbucks bagel […]

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