Ana’s Reason 2.

Series: Under the Surface – Ana’s 13 Reasons Why A series of posts uncovering what is really beneath my anorexia and depression. Reason 1: Genetic Temperament Traits Reason 2: Inheritance. Anyone else think they inherited a lot of who they are from their parents? Maybe hair color, eye color, body shape? For me, I can […]

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Under the Surface: Ana’s 13 Reasons Why.

I watched both seasons of the controversial Netflix original series, 13 Reasons Why. I agreed with a lot of it, actually. I don’t believe in blaming others for my choices, which the main character did, but I do believe that when enough crap piles on top of more crap, the result is an avalanche that […]

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What’s “normal” in recovery?

I am in no way “recovered”, even though my body is supposedly smack in the middle of the normal range. I have a lot of issues with the sentence I just wrote.

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It’s not that I don’t want to live…

If you watched last week’s episode of the new show A Million Little Things (you should, it’s great), you heard a character explain this: Of people who jump off the Brooklyn Bridge, only 1% survive. But, 100% of that 1% said they regretted it the moment they jumped. One said, “It’s not that I don’t […]

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Recovery Roller Coaster.

My least favorite ride is the Recovery Roller Coaster. Up and down goes the Recovery Roller Coaster. One day I’m UP. Eating three meals and two snacks (my latest directive from Kristen, my dietitian/therapist/all-the-things extraordinaire). I have even wondered some days if I’ve eaten intuitively that day…and then wondered if it’s intuitive if I have […]

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If I was being honest…

What would you say if you were being honest? I would tell you: I have been overeating for weeks. Pride. Disgust. Numb. I ate 575 calories one day, 800 the next. Then back to overeating. Disappointment. Fear. Disgust. I bought another scale yesterday. Hope. Control. Relief. I ate Taco Bell AND McDonald’s for dinner last […]

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Friendships 101: From “Getting Coffee” to “Netflix & Chill”

How do you, as an adult who is no longer in school, move beyond “Getting Coffee” friendships to “Netflix & Chill” friendships?   Definition of Terms: “Getting Coffee” friendships (GCFs): people that crossed paths with you at some point in your life and had enough of a connection that you “get coffee” every few months […]

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How to #jugglealltheballs in 3 simple ways

QOTD: How do you juggle all the balls you have? I have some answers below, but would love to hear your ideas! Alright folks. I took my longest break from writing a blog post since I went public. I didn’t mean to…it’s just…well…I’ve been…well…life went bonkers. So, everything was great (I mean, not really but […]

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It’s all about who you know. Or who knows you.

Did anyone notice I just spent the month of August doing the following: Going public with my anorexia/depression diagnosis (yes it was as terrifying as it sounds) Making a Mommystrong Facebook page Inviting ALL of my FB friends to like the page…twice (more terrifying the first time than the second) Posting to #mommystrong every 2-3 […]

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