How to conquer “fear foods”

Are there foods you don’t allow yourself to have because you fear you’ll lose control or feel guilty? This is how you can conquer your fear foods once and for all!

Body acceptance & diet culture – you can’t have both.

As a patient in treatment for anorexia, I had a classic paradox: mistrustful and compliant. Ana takes away the ability to trust anyone except her. She convinced me that my treatment team just wanted me to gain weight, but they didn’t really care about me. I doubted every piece of information they gave me, whether…

Anorexia, recovery, and privilege

Eating disorders do not discriminate, but what about the idea of having privilege to have an ed? Or having privilege in order to recover?

International No Diet Day!

On this, my 364th day since entering residential treatment for anorexia, it is coincidentally No Diet Day! What’s in a year? I’ll tell you…

On trolls, blogging, and fatphobia

If I didn’t have trollophobia, these are all the REALLY TRUE THINGS I would say about what’s wrong with our (crappy American diet) culture…

10 Truths about Recovery

The #1 question I hear in the eating disorder community is: “How do I recover?” That’s it. People suffering from an eating disorder want OUT, but don’t know how. So, here I am to share… TRUTH 1: While recovery is NOT linear, you are always moving forward. Each moment takes you closer to recovery. TRUTH…

Hurry up, Recovery.

I’ve learned a lot over the past year and some change that I’ve been in eating disorder recovery. And I’ve learned that patience is required to get better. I start moving in the right direction, and in an instant, I’m swept away by Ana and her promises of the perfect life, if only I am…

How shopping for a dietitian is like dating

My dietitian and I were together for just under a year, having recently broken up. She was the best dietitian I’ve ever had. We shared so much life, dark and scary moments as well as lots of victories. Everything was wonderful. At first, Kristen and I had an arranged relationship when she was assigned to…

the power of a photo in recovery

I really don’t want to publish this post. But if I want to be open about what anorexia recovery looks like, it includes this. One photo almost took me down… Roommate and I discovered that we were dressed exactly alike on Sunday night, thought it was funny (like how people who live together start to…