My body, an heirloom

Sonalee Rashatwar, a sex therapist and fat activist, was a guest on Christy Harrison’s (and my favorite) podcast, Food Psych, recently (episode 180, check it out). I was listening along, it was all very interesting, when Sonalee says: I consider my body as an heirloom. Have you ever thought of your body as a family heirloom? I have tried to explain on this blog the pervasive sense of loss and feeling of being alone that have resulted from the deaths of my parents and grandparents, without having any siblings. I have come up short every time. Twenty-one years of loss…

Want to #feelallthefeels? Try this…

Have you ever realized when you say, “I feel fat,” that can’t possibly be true? In daytime treatment, at nearly every meal, this conversation took place: Therapist: How do you feel? Client: I feel fat. Therapist: Fat is not a feeling. How do you feel? Client (in their head): As a person with anorexia… I respectfully (most of the time) disagreed with the notion that fat is not a feeling when I was in treatment. The feeling of fat was extraordinarily real to me. I felt literally like I was expanding with each bite. I could feel the extra flesh…

Am I weightist?

I’m part of an initiative at work to reduce bias at our university campus. It’s work that I’m very interested in and grateful for the opportunity in my new position to be part of as an “extracurricular”. One of the projects is dedicated to inclusive teaching learning at our institution. As part of this project, I was directed to Project Implicit, an Implicit Association Test developed by Harvard psychologists. On this site, there are a wide variety of tests you can take: religion, gender, age disability, sexuality, and more. There’s even one on Presidential Popularity…I won’t go there… Of course,…

the best podcast EVER.

My super amazing anti-diet dietitian recently introduced me to Food Psych, a fantastic podcast about all things body acceptance, including: Diet culture Fat acceptance Eating disorder recovery Intuitive eating Making peace with food AND SO MUCH MORE! Christy Harrison, the host, is absolutely fantastic. She has great experience with food writing (ironically what catalyzed her own ED recovery), and has been educated, trained, and taught/counseled as a (anti-diet) dietitian for many years. Each episode, she interviews an expert in one of the areas around body acceptance so you also learn about other great people in this movement. I have added…

Does this ______ make me look fat?

You may have noticed (particularly if you follow my social media) that I rarely post pics of myself. I rarely take selfies, and I can’t think of a time I posted one…unless other friends were crammed in it with me and even that is pretty rare. While my daughter is the best photo target I have, and my fur babies preceded her, there is a reason for the so infrequent photos of myself… A very common disorder that comes along for the ride with anorexia and other eating disorders is body dysmorphic disorder (BDD). WebMD defines BDD as, “a mental…