Recovery is hard.

I thought I already knew that, but apparently I needed to learn it all over again. I have a really hard time taking up space, both literal and figurative, in this world. I try not to talk about myself very much, and if I do, I talk fast. I move my grocery cart to the […]

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International No Diet Day!

On this, my 364th day since entering residential treatment for anorexia, it is coincidentally No Diet Day! What’s in a year? I’ll tell you…

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10 Truths about Recovery

The #1 question I hear in the eating disorder community is: “How do I recover?” That’s it. People suffering from an eating disorder want OUT, but don’t know how. So, here I am to share… TRUTH 1: While recovery is NOT linear, you are always moving forward. Each moment takes you closer to recovery. TRUTH […]

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The Recovery Food Pendulum

How many of you recognize this pattern as something you have engaged in, for perhaps many years? SWING INTO RESTRICTIVE EATING! Track calories, restrict fun foods, exercise to burn whatever fun foods I screw up and eat, track more calories, BLAST myself mentally. If I eat anything “bad”, I’m a bad person. If I eat, […]

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the power of a photo in recovery

I really don’t want to publish this post. But if I want to be open about what anorexia recovery looks like, it includes this. One photo almost took me down… Roommate and I discovered that we were dressed exactly alike on Sunday night, thought it was funny (like how people who live together start to […]

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How I learned to eat again

I have been learning intuitive eating from the best. She eats freely, enjoying what she wants when she wants in the quantity that is perfectly satisfying. She knows what foods she likes and what foods she doesn’t. She is unafraid to take big bites and lick her fingers. She uses all five of her senses […]

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My body, an heirloom

Sonalee Rashatwar, a sex therapist and fat activist, was a guest on Christy Harrison’s (and my favorite) podcast, Food Psych, recently (episode 180, check it out). I was listening along, it was all very interesting, when Sonalee says: I consider my body as an heirloom. Have you ever thought of your body as a family […]

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Anorexia & Alcoholism Recovery – same or different?

I have never been an alcoholic, so add a few grains of salt to this post, but over the past year I have thought a lot about how recovery from alcoholism and anorexia have many similarities and one huge difference. I watch the CBS sitcom, Mom, starring Allison Janney and Anna Faris. Quick plug: this […]

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Under the Surface: Ana’s 13 Reasons Why.

I watched both seasons of the controversial Netflix original series, 13 Reasons Why. I agreed with a lot of it, actually. I don’t believe in blaming others for my choices, which the main character did, but I do believe that when enough crap piles on top of more crap, the result is an avalanche that […]

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