After 40 years, God showed up.

So, Jesus and me. We have had a long and winding journey. I followed Jesus as a Christian for 15 years, from age 14-29. Highlights of this time include: Being at church 5-7 days per week during high school Going to a tiny Baptist university in Arkansas Going to Africa as a missionary for two […]

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Grit and Growth Mindset for Anorexia Recovery

As a higher education professional for 15 years, I have learned a thing or two about two concepts that are HUGE in the world of student success: grit and growth mindset. I’ve been working hard to develop a workshop for my students on Resilience, Grit, and Growth Mindset and realized, “Oh…I should probably practice what […]

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Treatment friends and empathy.

On my anorexia recovery journey, I spent 3 weeks in a daytime treatment program and 6 weeks in a residential treatment program in 2018. On my first day in the day program, during breakfast, I thought I had entered a looney bin. And I didn’t belong there. I learned more about empathy in those 9 […]

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Anorexia & Alcoholism Recovery – same or different?

I have never been an alcoholic, so add a few grains of salt to this post, but over the past year I have thought a lot about how recovery from alcoholism and anorexia have many similarities and one huge difference. I watch the CBS sitcom, Mom, starring Allison Janney and Anna Faris. Quick plug: this […]

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The power of a doughnut.

Last March, I went to Las Vegas for a conference. I was at my deepest point in anorexia, at my lowest weight and terrified of everything. My biggest fear about going to the conference was the food. What would I eat? Would I be able to stay disciplined? Could I possibly return home at the […]

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Mamaritas

Last night, I went out for “Mamaritas,” my friend’s term for a group of moms going out for margaritas. In order to go, I had to do some things that I’m not accustomed to: Commit about 10 days in advance Hire a babysitter for LK (the first one ever) Stay up past 8:30pm Socialize in […]

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Am I weightist?

I’m part of an initiative at work to reduce bias at our university campus. It’s work that I’m very interested in and grateful for the opportunity in my new position to be part of as an “extracurricular”. One of the projects is dedicated to inclusive teaching learning at our institution. As part of this project, […]

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Game, Set, Match.

March 29, 2013 – my first weight recording on MyFitnessPal. January 1, 2019 – checked my “all-time” weight recording on MFP for the first time. In just under six years, guess what the weight difference was? ZERO. ZERO. Once more, with feeling. ZERO. I was SHOCKED. Since March 29, 2013, I have dieted. I have […]

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I’m okay.

A miracle happened this Monday morning. I was driving to work and felt my belly and hips. Employing a coping strategy from treatment, rather than personalizing my thought, I observed it: “Hmm. I feel my belly and hips. I am noticing they are there.” Then, I did the usual next thing. I reached over and […]

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