Facing the kitchen. Literally.

My department moved to a new building on campus last month. Above is the view from my new office. The person in anorexia recovery won the coveted spot directly facing the kitchen. Does anyone else appreciate the irony? I did laugh when I found out. And I mentioned we moved last month…December…the holidays. What I’ve observed: Everyone on my floor making their lunch, including smells Lots of holiday treats left out for all to have Chatting, lots of chatting. About food. About weight. About body image. Diet culture. I haven’t come up with my strategy for dealing with this yet…

Selectively social and new jeans.

On (or really, Off) Social Media It finally happened. I became happier without Facebook than with it. Okay, honestly, that probably would have been the case a long time ago if I had tried it out. I deactivated my FB account before the holiday and was enjoying NOT knowing what was going on in everyone else’s social media lives. I didn’t constantly think about how my life wasn’t looking as good as everyone else’s and feeling like a bad mom for not taking LK to get Santa pics. I haven’t completely closed it, as that feels so very permanent, and…

Ana’s Reason 12.

Series: Under the Surface – Ana’s 13 Reasons Why A series of posts uncovering what is really beneath my anorexia and depression. Reason 1: Genetic Temperament Traits Reason 2: Inheritance Reason 3: My parents’ marriage. And divorce. And remarriage. To each other. Reason 4: Genes load the gun. Environment pulls the trigger. Reason 5: Mama dies. Reason 6: Unrequited Love. Repeatedly. Reason 7: I never left college. Reason 8: I went from only child/grandchild to orphan in three months. Reason 9: Stuck in Seattle. Reason 10: Friendless. Reason 11: 2600 miles from family and framily. Reason 12. All things post-partum….

Ana’s Reasons 9-11.

For two reasons, I’m combining Ana’s Reasons 9-11: They feel super intertwined to the point that I’m not sure how to write separate posts about them, yet they feel distinct enough to warrant each being a reason. I’m getting tired of this series and ready to move on. I’m not sure anymore that  ruminating on all the whys of Ana is helpful, and in fact, may be starting to become detrimental to my recovery. Series: Under the Surface – Ana’s 13 Reasons Why A series of posts uncovering what is really beneath my anorexia and depression. Reason 1: Genetic Temperament…

Ana’s Reason 7.

Series: Under the Surface – Ana’s 13 Reasons Why A series of posts uncovering what is really beneath my anorexia and depression. Reason 1: Genetic Temperament Traits Reason 2: Inheritance Reason 3: My parents’ marriage. And divorce. And remarriage. To each other. Reason 4: Genes load the gun. Environment pulls the trigger. Reason 5: Mama dies. Reason 6: Unrequited Love. Repeatedly. Reason 7. I never left college. Well, technically I did for about 2 years, but I LOVE ME SOME COLLEGE. I did the fabulous 5-year plan, and truth be told, I did it simply because I loved college and…

the best podcast EVER.

My super amazing anti-diet dietitian recently introduced me to Food Psych, a fantastic podcast about all things body acceptance, including: Diet culture Fat acceptance Eating disorder recovery Intuitive eating Making peace with food AND SO MUCH MORE! Christy Harrison, the host, is absolutely fantastic. She has great experience with food writing (ironically what catalyzed her own ED recovery), and has been educated, trained, and taught/counseled as a (anti-diet) dietitian for many years. Each episode, she interviews an expert in one of the areas around body acceptance so you also learn about other great people in this movement. I have added…