Body acceptance & diet culture – you can’t have both.

As a patient in treatment for anorexia, I had a classic paradox: mistrustful and compliant. Ana takes away the ability to trust anyone except her. She convinced me that my treatment team just wanted me to gain weight, but they didn’t really care about me. I doubted every piece of information they gave me, whether […]

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Anorexia, recovery, and privilege

Eating disorders do not discriminate, but what about the idea of having privilege to have an ed? Or having privilege in order to recover?

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International No Diet Day!

On this, my 364th day since entering residential treatment for anorexia, it is coincidentally No Diet Day! What’s in a year? I’ll tell you…

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On trolls, blogging, and fatphobia

If I didn’t have trollophobia, these are all the REALLY TRUE THINGS I would say about what’s wrong with our (crappy American diet) culture…

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10 Truths about Recovery

The #1 question I hear in the eating disorder community is: “How do I recover?” That’s it. People suffering from an eating disorder want OUT, but don’t know how. So, here I am to share… TRUTH 1: While recovery is NOT linear, you are always moving forward. Each moment takes you closer to recovery. TRUTH […]

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The Recovery Food Pendulum

How many of you recognize this pattern as something you have engaged in, for perhaps many years? SWING INTO RESTRICTIVE EATING! Track calories, restrict fun foods, exercise to burn whatever fun foods I screw up and eat, track more calories, BLAST myself mentally. If I eat anything “bad”, I’m a bad person. If I eat, […]

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Hurry up, Recovery.

I’ve learned a lot over the past year and some change that I’ve been in eating disorder recovery. And I’ve learned that patience is required to get better. I start moving in the right direction, and in an instant, I’m swept away by Ana and her promises of the perfect life, if only I am […]

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