Want to #feelallthefeels? Try this…

Have you ever realized when you say, “I feel fat,” that can’t possibly be true? In daytime treatment, at nearly every meal, this conversation took place: Therapist: How do you feel? Client: I feel fat. Therapist: Fat is not a feeling. How do you feel? Client (in their head): As a person with anorexia… I respectfully (most of the time) disagreed with the notion that fat is not a feeling when I was in treatment. The feeling of fat was extraordinarily real to me. I felt literally like I was expanding with each bite. I could feel the extra flesh…

Reckless Love

TRIGGER WARNING: eating disorder behavior in detail At a meal in residential, I placed my napkin in my lap as I was accustomed to doing. The staff person at my table said, “Peggy, no napkins in laps, please.” Innocently and ignorantly, I asked, “What, why?” truly not having a clue why this was a rule. Residential was full of rules that made no sense to me, many only discovered when I tried to commit the offense and was corrected. I am a good girl, well behaved, and a rule follower. I hated learning the rules this way, especially since it…

#mommystrong’s greatest hits

Because many people have started following #mommystrong recently (thank you!), I wanted to direct followers to my most popular and favorite posts (this mirrors the Best of #mommystrong page so you can always refer back there as well). My two main goals with this blog are: Support those who are experiencing eating disorders to feel that recovery is possible and provide resources. Self catharsis as I process and reflect my own anorexia recovery journey. My Story After 40 years, God showed up. The best frenemy there ever was. And I do mean WAS. On aging and anorexia Ten years an…

You can’t be brave if you aren’t scared.

A quote I heard six months ago that stuck in my brain since, from one of the best movies I’d seen in a long time: Maybe I’m the only one, but I suspect not. 8th grade was AWKWARD. I spent most of it being scared, but not brave. Because that’s also accurate: You can be scared and not brave. Watch this trailer for the movie. Take a couple of minutes. I bet you’ll see yourself, to some degree, in her story. You can just live in the fear and let it overwhelm and suffocate you. I’ve done this for a…

After 40 years, God showed up.

So, Jesus and me. We have had a long and winding journey. I followed Jesus as a Christian for 15 years, from age 14-29. Highlights of this time include: Being at church 5-7 days per week during high school Going to a tiny Baptist university in Arkansas Going to Africa as a missionary for two years after college Working at a Baptist college after returning to the States Being a “small group” leader (the group grew to 30) and mentor to younger Christians I mean, I was IN IT, y’all. I wore shirts like this: I was Christian. I could…