Jesse’s Girl: Support in Recovery

So, the song goes, “I wish that I had Jessie’s girl,” because some dude is lusting after his friend’s woman. This post isn’t so much about that. In my head that song is more like other girls singing, “I wish that I was Jesse’s Girl” because let me tell you, my man is the good stuff. And, he’s HOTTER than Rick Springfield. The best way to get support is to ask for it. Trust me, I know this is hard. When you’re in the throes of an eating disorder, secrecy is king. I get it. The LAST THING you want…

Want to #feelallthefeels? Try this…

Have you ever realized when you say, “I feel fat,” that can’t possibly be true? In daytime treatment, at nearly every meal, this conversation took place: Therapist: How do you feel? Client: I feel fat. Therapist: Fat is not a feeling. How do you feel? Client (in their head): As a person with anorexia… I respectfully (most of the time) disagreed with the notion that fat is not a feeling when I was in treatment. The feeling of fat was extraordinarily real to me. I felt literally like I was expanding with each bite. I could feel the extra flesh…

Reckless Love

TRIGGER WARNING: eating disorder behavior in detail At a meal in residential, I placed my napkin in my lap as I was accustomed to doing. The staff person at my table said, “Peggy, no napkins in laps, please.” Innocently and ignorantly, I asked, “What, why?” truly not having a clue why this was a rule. Residential was full of rules that made no sense to me, many only discovered when I tried to commit the offense and was corrected. I am a good girl, well behaved, and a rule follower. I hated learning the rules this way, especially since it…

#mommystrong’s greatest hits

Because many people have started following #mommystrong recently (thank you!), I wanted to direct followers to my most popular and favorite posts (this mirrors the Best of #mommystrong page so you can always refer back there as well). My two main goals with this blog are: Support those who are experiencing eating disorders to feel that recovery is possible and provide resources. Self catharsis as I process and reflect my own anorexia recovery journey. My Story After 40 years, God showed up. The best frenemy there ever was. And I do mean WAS. On aging and anorexia Ten years an…

You can’t be brave if you aren’t scared.

A quote I heard six months ago that stuck in my brain since, from one of the best movies I’d seen in a long time: Maybe I’m the only one, but I suspect not. 8th grade was AWKWARD. I spent most of it being scared, but not brave. Because that’s also accurate: You can be scared and not brave. Watch this trailer for the movie. Take a couple of minutes. I bet you’ll see yourself, to some degree, in her story. You can just live in the fear and let it overwhelm and suffocate you. I’ve done this for a…