Anorexia, recovery, and privilege

Eating disorders do not discriminate, but what about the idea of having privilege to have an ed? Or having privilege in order to recover?

International No Diet Day!

On this, my 364th day since entering residential treatment for anorexia, it is coincidentally No Diet Day! What’s in a year? I’ll tell you…

10 Truths about Recovery

The #1 question I hear in the eating disorder community is: “How do I recover?” That’s it. People suffering from an eating disorder want OUT, but don’t know how. So, here I am to share… TRUTH 1: While recovery is NOT linear, you are always moving forward. Each moment takes you closer to recovery. TRUTH…

The Recovery Food Pendulum

How many of you recognize this pattern as something you have engaged in, for perhaps many years? SWING INTO RESTRICTIVE EATING! Track calories, restrict fun foods, exercise to burn whatever fun foods I screw up and eat, track more calories, BLAST myself mentally. If I eat anything “bad”, I’m a bad person. If I eat,…

Hurry up, Recovery.

I’ve learned a lot over the past year and some change that I’ve been in eating disorder recovery. And I’ve learned that patience is required to get better. I start moving in the right direction, and in an instant, I’m swept away by Ana and her promises of the perfect life, if only I am…

How shopping for a dietitian is like dating

My dietitian and I were together for just under a year, having recently broken up. She was the best dietitian I’ve ever had. We shared so much life, dark and scary moments as well as lots of victories. Everything was wonderful. At first, Kristen and I had an arranged relationship when she was assigned to…

How I learned to eat again

I have been learning intuitive eating from the best. She eats freely, enjoying what she wants when she wants in the quantity that is perfectly satisfying. She knows what foods she likes and what foods she doesn’t. She is unafraid to take big bites and lick her fingers. She uses all five of her senses…

My body, an heirloom

Sonalee Rashatwar, a sex therapist and fat activist, was a guest on Christy Harrison’s (and my favorite) podcast, Food Psych, recently (episode 180, check it out). I was listening along, it was all very interesting, when Sonalee says: I consider my body as an heirloom. Have you ever thought of your body as a family…